Wednesday, May 28, 2003

I suspect that their are about 10 people who really dig what I do as a worship leader and that everybody else just thinks I am stupid. I find myself very conflicted at the prospect of recording a "Mark Currey - Worship Project” as I fear that the resulting sales would only confirm this suspicion. I guess I have just played to too many empty houses in the last year or so. MCB fans (whoever you are) don't seem to travel well. I am feeling a bit insecure right now. Maybe it is just encroaching age and receding coolness. Maybe I am just too damned self involved. Maybe I just need to play somewhere and have more than 5 people I know (most of which are family) show up. Maybe I still secretly want to be a rock star. Maybe I should shut up and write some new songs.

I am in a very dark place today.

Tuesday, May 13, 2003

Bob Dylan's Little Rock concert at the 18,000 seat Alltel arena has been moved to the 2,400 capacity Nite Life Rocks dance club due to poor ticket sales (1,400 so far). The whole world is going to hell. I give up...